Over the past 4 or so months I've noticed her changing. Kind of becoming more immature and selfish. And spending a lot less time with me, or talking to me, and just seeming to not care about me at all. And any promise she's made since my birthday hasn't been kept. Very odd behavior. The few times going out were all about her & what she wanted to do.
When trying to call her out this change a couple of times, each time she'd get extremely mad and then try to shift the focus as if I was the one who has been changing. Irrational behavior.
This culminated in her not talking to me for several weeks in a row (her immature way to not dealing with a situation; whereas I, being mature, want to talk it out) despite my attempts to contact her with friendly words.
Then I find out last week from a mutual friend (and coworker, Adam, whom I'm becoming good friends with) what's up: she's been dating an old friend of hers: an alcoholic, ex-druggie! WTF?! She's gone off the deep-end.
As Adam put it: she's off her rocker, and she's delusional. Heh.
Fortunately for my sanity, Adam was seeing what I was seeing: her changes, her irrational behavior/attitude, etc, etc.
Then Monday after not talking to me for weeks on end, she said she wanted to come over to pick up her Wii. The days she suggested to do this were ones I already had plans (like swing lessons, etc). I remember how she acted with Spencer and taking her gifts to him back, and at this point I plain didn't want her near my pad, so I went out of my way to bring it to her after work.
After I got out of my car and handed her the bag with the Wii in it, she turned to walk away up the driveway. As she did, I politely asked her to delete my family & friends' contact info from her phone & email and then she blew up.
Yelling at me on the lawn, she couldn't even finish a sentence without jumping to something else -- things she said were completely irrational & untrue. Basically she was acting like a 5 year old throwing a temper tantrum. Complete with "I hate your guts!" Really? Yes. Reason? No idea. I hadn't done a thing.
I lifted up my sunglasses so she could look me in the eyes, and I smiled all the way through it, turning the other cheek & holding my tongue. I was in control and slung no mud back at her. She was out of control.
A good comparison would be Star Wars Episode 3 when Padme came to visit Anakin towards the end, and the continuing banter between delusional-Anakin and Obi-Wan. Sara was acting like Anakin, and I was the clear-headed Obi-Wan.
It's such a disappointment that what seemed to be a great friendship was destroyed by her attitude.
Oh well, a small blip on the time line of my life. I was just disappointed & annoyed. Otherwise I don't really care: if that's who she has become, then she has no place in my life. I'm mature enough to move on.
It does remind me how thankful I am to have good friends, ones I can always rely on being friends. Even if I don't see some of them very often (Jason, Megan, Spencer...) I'm still glad for them!
"So many faces in and out of my life / Some will last / Some will just be now and then / Life is a series of hellos and goodbyes / I'm afraid it's time for goodbye again."
--Billy Joel, Say Goodbye To Hollywood
--Billy Joel, Say Goodbye To Hollywood
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